I have heard hundreds of times “I can’t imagine what it’s like to lose a child.” Perhaps someday I’ll write more about that, but for now here’s a glimpse of my “new normal” life as a bereaved parent two years after my daughter’s death.
“It was time to start surviving and that was going to take every ounce of my being to accomplish”
My grief journey began suddenly in 2018 when my youngest daughter, Ellie, died in my arms at just 10 days old. I was crushed. Friends, family, and strangers came together around the world and prayed for my daughter’s healing, but unfortunately God’s plan for my child did not match my own. I had been a … Continue reading Good Friday and Easter: a view from the lens of child loss
In December of 2019, I sat in my bathroom staring at a little plastic stick with two pink lines. I rubbed my eyes to be sure they weren’t telling me a lie. A knot formed in the pit of my stomach. Given the events of the last couple of years, a positive pregnancy test could … Continue reading Pregnancy After Loss
My precious child: today you would be 2 years old. The time has passed at both record speed while also dragging at a snail’s pace. Time has done that regularly since you left. I’m not the same mother I was when I gave birth to you two years ago. Your life and death has changed … Continue reading On Your 2nd Birthday